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Hey Suzanne! I was so happy to see your post.
There are alot of post ops further out than a year that feel the same way you do, about not knowing anybody anymore... I can understand how frustrating that is for you and why you stay away, alot of other gals here say they dont go to support group meetings because they feel the same way, they dont know anybody anymore... but I can tell you from the bottom of my heart that I need your help and guidance... I need ot hear your trials and tribulations. I need to hear what works for some, what doesnt for others.
I see that you are more than 2 years out but I find myself at 9 months facing the same fears you have... many of us newbies do. I knwo you dont have an obligation to post here or go to meetings but I would surely appreciate the service if you could ... right now I habe MaryClipper and NewThisDale to listen too ..... I need more and want more.. I dont want to read anybody's books... I want to hear straight from you Callery kids... your success, your demons.... It is important to me... perhaps by being a mentor to us who are further out could encourage you and give you strength to get back on track. I am not sure if this is something that you are ready to do, but please know it would be appreciated!
I have a couple of friends that had the surgery who I talk to about food issues, and it helps alot. It is not a cure by any means... but if I didnt have Stacie on the phone yesterday Im sure I would have bought that Zebra Cake! (Thanks for saving me Stacie!)
Being up front and honest helps! I started counseling last week because I feel those same urges coming on as well... and Im freaked out because I am having plastic surgery in a couple of weeks... and totally worried and feaked out that gaining any weight cannot be acceptable.. I cant ruin my new skin and body..... but all I have been able to do consistantly my whole life was gain weight... people could always count on me being big! I am fearful of being that big person again.... i dont ever want to go there... so i can totally empathcize with how you feel .... I need to give ya a hug.. if you dont mind 'em... just know that you are not alone, many of us feel just as you do. I look forward to seeing you on Thursday, despite what you see as a failure, you are still a huge inspiration! (((((HUGS)))))
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J.Bridget Fisher aka koi-pea
2/9/04 lap 5'11"
298/170-trying to lose another 10
www.myspace.com/caliclovercutie
What Sawyer would call me on LOST: ladybug
"People will argue with you that getting what you want in life isn’t something you can learn, if you’re destined to be one of the worlds winners as opposed to one of its perpetual whiners, its because you have been born with the right talents and temperament and have a big dose of self-esteem, ambition, and good judgment." Kate White
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