October 16, 2004
Hey all,
So, today is Saturday and I had to work. I am usually off on Saturday and Sunday, but one of my employees is on vacation so I am working for her.
Anyway, last night, while driving to Stuart's party, I spoke with my eldest sister, Ginger.(She's about 8 years older than me) Now, I haven't spoken to Ginger in over a year. But, Ginger is the one sibling who "really" remembers what my childhood was like. See, I can't remember too much about my childhood. I don't know why. So anyway, Ginger proceeded to give me her opinion on the situation. She told me that my mom, whom I thought was very nurturing and giving, really wasn't. She explained that my mom was emotionally absent most of the time and SHE (Ginger) basically was left to raise us kids (my siblings). Meaning, my mom depended on her to really help out with us. And she resented it. Who could blame her? Hell, she didn't have us...my mom did. So, why should she be responsible for us? Anyway, my sister is bitter and pissed off at my mom. She doesn't talk to her. I really can understand her position.
I guess, from what Ginger says, my mom had a "brief affair" on my dad when I was really little. My dad freaked out and moved us all, as a family, away from that environment. It was the middle of the night...we were all asleep in our beds...my dad stormed into our rooms, packed up our stuff, and moved us out of there. My mom denies it. I don't know who to believe.
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Stacie
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