I am frustrated. I kind of feel jipped, I am not having any of the effects fo this surgery that cause the great amount of weight loss. No adversion to smells, tastes or textures of food, rarely get a feeling of being full, I do get hungry, I can eat sugar and some fats to a greater extent that I am comfortable with. Now someoen will say )or think) stop whining eventually everyone gets to the point that they have to "work" their tool.....I had about a month! Not 6, 9 or a year of feeling no hunger and having my calories restricted to a miniscule level and one month isn't nearly enough to overcome years of over eating and habits that lend to obesity. I can't believe the amounts of food I hear people surviving on. And they are still functioning. I get light headed just picking up at toy at 1100 calories a day! Perhaps having been anorexic (and for fear of becoming that way again) I feel that just because I can go without food doesn't mean I should. But the truth be told, I am tempted. I know I shouldn't compare and it's less of that and more of a pattern I have noticed, but those who are sick and struggling to get foods in are ultimately coming out the other end with better results. It's 6 of one and a 1/2 dozen of the other, but today my glass feels half empty. I am working my ass off and not seeing the results of others who are on their behinds from lack of energy. Not one person had better come and tell me I am not entitled to this rant. I had the same surgery with the same expectations and I am at my wits end as to why my body is responding differently than expected.
I am going to work out again tonight, all cardio I think. My 5 year old is begging for a night off of karate....how sad is that? I guess I shouldn't force my need to go work out on him, right? I go to the gym and send him to karate next door. Perhaps DH will hang out and me and Kaden will go together so Logan can have a night off LOL
I am going to sneek in a 20 min nap before my girls get up. Thanks for reading my rant....
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