Well here it is the beginning of 2006. WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE EACTLY!?!?!?!? Where do I start with the boring details of what is my life? AH HA...the beginning.
When I last posted I was mostly depressed and discouraged. I had gotten back together with my ex-husband, who broke up with me on Thanksgiving, and I was feeling sorry for myself. Well I started to realize that I didn't need his drama in my life...I had enough of my own.
Then, at 31 years old, I got the chicken pox. Felt ok, just itchy and BORED cause I couldn't leave the house. Again started feeling sorry for myself cause I missed my company's Christmas Party...and I REALLY wanted to go. I hated looking at myself in the mirror because everytime I did there were more spots/blisters/sores/scabs on my face. Then, I started thinking that getting these spots was some kind of a hint from
SOMEONE that I was becoming too vain and getting too full of myself. It was a wake up call for me. After a few days, reguardless of how my face looked, I started having a better attitude and a better outlook on life. I came to the realization that NO MATTER what I looked like, I had people around me that loved me and I was blessed.
Next came Christmas. The first one without my father. It was sad because my family was talking about all the previous ones when he was still here. BUT, I looked at the bright side there too...he's not "gone" and he was there. He's a part of all of us wether he's there in person or in spirit. Not only was Christmas a time to look back on the past, but a time to look forward towards bigger and better things. My oldest daughter's father and I decided to get together and start a relationship. (We were not together when she was conceived or anytime after that. We were friends who kind of let things go a little too far one night, and SURPRISE...) We had a conversation one night about being happy and how we felt about eachother. He revealed that he had strong feelings for me, and eventhough I never knew he felt that way about me, I did some soul searching and realized I felt the same way about him. He's always been there for me and always supported me. Most of the time a successful relationship starts as a friendship. So, we'll take it one day at a time and see how things go from here.
After that came my youngest daughter's birthday and the bad news that my 38 year old brother had gotten the chicken pox as well. I felt so guilty because I had dropped my children off with him while I was sick and then after being totally selfless, he got sick. He's since recovered, but had a terrible New Year.
My New Year, so far, is going well. I have a prospect of a new job, making more money and not having to work 60 hours a week anymore. I'll actually get to see my children!! Not to mention...I'll actually have a life besides work again. I'll let you know how that goes, but in the meantime keep your fingers crossed. I'm taking things minute by minute.
Oh...duh. I forgot to update my weight situation. I went down to 174 in September or October and kind of got stuck there. Then I gained about 12 pounds and I couldn't get rid of it. Well...recently I weighed myself (after avoiding the scale) and discovered that I lost 10 pounds. I don't know how I did it, but it's gone and it won't be coming back!
So, that's about it. I could go on and on, but I'll leave some for the next time I post my update. Thanks for listening and take care!!