My husband was very afraid that I would leave him once I took my weight off. He was watching me all the time. Making sure I wasn't going astray. I just kept reasuring him that "He get's to enjoy my new body, He was the one who stayed with me on the way up the scale and He will get to reap the rewards of the new me on the way down. It take lots of reasuring. But if he is willing to go to counseling I would go.
I am so proud of you...... You are doing such an awesome job. I know how you feel about feeling surreal. I feel the same way. People say they don't recognize me, they ooooogggle over how I look now. It just dosen't seem real. Even though I am wearing size 10 and 12 my brain just can't comprehend the difference. I still dont' feel like it is good enough. I still have 17 more maybe 20 to be were I want to be. I don't know if it will be good enough then. I just really need to ask God to show me what he see's in me. Who He says I am. Then I will know the truth.
Love ya my fellow sister
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Barbara Johanning
01-14-05, Potts Open
5'4" 247/157/140 -90
BMI 43.7/now 26.9
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