I know that all of us can empathize with at least one thing that you said - but most of us can empathize with the whole lot!
I've said it before, and I'll say it a million times more because it's something that I'm constantly trying to work on - try to work on having compassion for yourself. We all know that the surgery didn't fix our heads and it's perfectly natural for you to still have these little hiccups in mood, action, and attitude. Up until a few months ago, you spent the majority of your life turning to food in times of need... Of course that's going to be your knee-jerk reaction to different stimulus. Rather than being dissapointed in yourself for having that reaction, celebrate the fact that you have made major changes that allowed you to change your reaction to something healthy. It may happen a few more times, but each time, your reaction time will get shorter and shorter, then finally one day you won't find yourself at the fridge at all. You're building new habits and they take a while to replace the old ones.
Even though it seems like there's a "depression flu" going around right now, (so there may not be anything concrete that you're bummed about) you may want to take some time and think about what could be pushing your buttons right now. Of course, there's a lot on your plate - a job that can be stressful, new eating habits, losing lots of weight, planning a wedding, etc. What I'm suggesting is that identifying whatever it is that is causing you to want to nibble or eat and addressing that issue is much more productive than focusing on why your response to stress is eating. Do you see what I mean? If you can address what's bothering you then you will probably eliminate the reason that you're wanting to eat unecessarily. Focusing on the unecessary eating doesn't resolve the core issue that's causing that reaction.
Okay, I'll take off my therapy-colored spectacles right now...
You're doing great, Christina. You've come so far, your life has changed so much, and we all adore you... truly.
