When I went to my quack doctor and told her I wanted WLS, she said there is no way she would ever refer me to a WL surgeon. (she's MO herself) She said I was "Medium".... I weigh 230+ lbs... and I'm 5'4". I wanted to say, "Lady, why the heck do I have to wear these gramma panties in size XXL if I'm "medium"?
My mother was MO as well and she would always put me down about eating or being fat, even though I wasn't until I got older. She made me feel guilty about eating. I still feel guilt and shame when I eat, especially in front of other people. I was anorexic in high school and did the bulimia thing.. which I still do sometimes when the guilt overwhelms, and it was always, you're too skinny, you're going to make yourself sick. The lowest I ever weighted was 108 lbs and 5'4". Thats the lower range of what I should weigh.
My all-time favorite comment was on my wedding anniversary my then-husband (we divorced several years ago) were on a dinner cruiseship. I had to wear a dress that was too tight for me, because there were no stores that had nice clothing in my size. A skinny girl and her boyfriend were closeby, and the girl turned to the guy and said, "Someone should tell that girl she is overweight". I totally heard it, and looked at her... I could only imagine what expression I had on my face, but the guy saw I was looking at them and winced. As ignorant as that girl was and as much as I hated to, I cried for a long time and my evening was ruined.
I really really hope someday I can live a life where mean fat comments are never uttered. I hope someday I can get the surgery
