Honestly, having this surgery has been so much easier for me than what I went through and how I tormented my body before I had it done. Let's see.....I was once bulimic after I had lost about 75 lbs because I was so scared to gain the weight back - this surgery is so much easier (and healthier) than anything I went through with that. I once went to the Weight Loss Clinic and went on their 500 calorie diet - I lost a ton of weight - and was hungry quite a bit of time. I would tormnent myself with thoughts of what a slob I was if I ate anything above those 500 calories. This surgery has been so much easier than anything I went through then. Most recently I went on Optifast - a liquid diet except for one protein bar a day. Talk about bad for your body and mind. I struggled all the time with myself - fighting in my head whether or not I should eat something or not. This surgery is so much easier for me than that was. I am not having internal struggles over food anymore, if I want something I eat it - just a little - and I am satisfied. Physically this has been so much easier on my body than any of those extreme things I did before. For me, this is the easy way out and I thank God for it every day. It's not my aim in life to do everything the hard way - why should I feel ashamed or defensive if I did take the easy way out. I never feel guilty for driving my car to work vs walking or riding a horse like they did before cars. Isn't that taking the easy way out? I don't feel guilty for buying in my groceries in a grocery store instead of raising them by myself. Isn't that taking the easy way out. We could go on and on about how doing nearly everything in our life is taking the easy way out but we don't. We don't put that on other people - why should we let them put that on us? When I hear comments on it being the easy way out I just smile and say, "You're right it is so much easier than any of the hell I put my mind or body through before this surgery. And I am so thankful doctors developed this easy way so I can live healthy!"
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Veronica
Lap 7/6/05
215/155/123
start/goal/current At NORMAL weight!
BMI 39.32/21.8
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