I have been so depressed this week! I talked to my Best Friend Monday night. During our conversation she basically told me I took the easy way out by having the bypass surgery! I am so angry and hurt!! I am soooo tired of hearing this crap from uneducated people! This coming from someone who knows how it feels to be overweight, she lost over 100 pounds three years ago, she was lucky and was able to do it using Weight Watchers program. I have struggled for the past 12 years (my whole life really) with my weight and trying to lose it, so this surgery was not an overnight decision. The past 3 years have been a roller coaster – with my experience with the Lap-Band and the surgeries to replace the broken ports the last one being in September, which is when I decided to have a revision to the Bypass. So for her to tell me I took the easy way out – I just want to smack her!!! I know it is mostly out of jealousy, she has gained back 50 pounds out of the 120 she lost and has had a hard time trying to lose weight recently. But I am not competing with her! I did this for my health and my ultimate goal to have a baby in the near future!
I am very blessed, my family has been 100% supportive every inch of the way! Two other very close friends of mine are wonderful, they are my cheerleaders – every week they ask me how much I lost and cheer me on. It Just hurts that my best friend can’t be there for me.
Also, hard dealing with emotions when my crutch and Best Friend used to be food. Still trying to figure out how to deal with the loss of food as a companion. In the old days I would have gone for a pint of Ben and Jerry’s and so on......... Now, I feel like I just stay angry. I am learning, but I don’t regret one minute of this WLS experience – it is the best thing I ever did!
I also am so grateful to have found this board and all of you wonderful people! You all are a godsend! I know I do not post often but I am here reading on a daily basis! Thanks a million to all of you!!!
