Someone asked if anyone ever "stood up for me"?I would have to say no..but I was in total denile...I was MO but didn't see it.I knew I was "KINDA"big but still thought I was cute.(280 lbs..kinda big...such denile.)
It's not what he said it was my reaction.I clammed up...glanced at evryone else at the table.It was like from a movie.
I feel like a weight loss loser...had to revert to surgery to control myself from emotional eating.*yes I see a therapist*But thats how I feel or have been made to feel.
This was the hardest thing I have done in my life...to offer my body up on the chopping block....rearange what GOD designed....so I can, with Gods grace control my destructive eating habits.
I hear so many times it's the easy way out...I cringe when I hear those words.
Ok...I'm done...feels good to just let it rip.....on the keyboard.
Weight off chest in Fl~
Van
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 Van 
Lap RNY March,21 2005
280/130
VPA BEAR
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