My husband and I had a fight last night and he told me he is tired of hearing about WLS. I am sorry but thats such a big thing in my life right now. Its what I think about at least half the time, even if its just in the back of my mind. He is supportive in that he doesn't not want me to get the surgery but he doens't want to hear about it. Its not fair because he is embarrassed by my weight but I he doesn't really support me in doing something about it either. He believes I should just go on another diet. I did that. Lost a ton of weight and was miserable. To keep it off I couldn't eat. You can't live that way. I can't live that way. I'm sorry to wine, I just have no other place to turn. I am truely alone in this WLS journey. No one in my real life supports me. But you know what? I know its what I have to do for myself and thats what I am going to do, even if I have to travel this path alone.
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Heather
Lap RNY on 12/12/05
261/118/150/5'8"
preop/current/goal
BMI 17.9
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