JWheeler

All that graduation snacking and eating really through me off track. Plus, I think I've been dealing with some insecurities that have recently resurfaced. I thought I was ready for boy attention, but after a first kiss on a first date, I found myself gorging on chewy granola bars and sugar-free popsicles. The food sabotoge has taken over and I'm having trouble controlling my desire to snack. I get so frustrated with myself!!

I also think part of the sabotoge is my mind needing time to wrap itself around a 70 pound loss. I've been so focused on the number that I haven't taken time to think about what's missing. I recently compared some pictures of myself from graduation 4 years ago to the pictures taken for the recent graduation. Significant difference! You can actually see both ears when I smile! I think it's time that I sit back and feel good about my accomplishments. I look good. I feel good. I've starting jogging. I have to learn to remain in control of my eating. I also have to gain control of my confidence and my desire to be thin and healthy. I cannot allow my lack of confidence and fearful self to sabotage the results of this surgery.

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--Jeannette
10/14/03
Start: 256
Goal: 137