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QueenB · 11-19-2005, 10:39 PM

Ok, now I know why Rain said her husband call GBS "the cruelest diet". You can't quit, you can't change your mind, you can't have a burger and start again tomorrow. It's cruel........probably the only thing that works-but cruel none the less. Now I know I will finally figure out this irritating need to eat and I will feel better about this decision but right now I am NOT getting that I am just not hungry. What I do know is that most people, not even the skinny ones, don't rely on actual hunger pangs to know when they are hungry. They simply rely on appetite, the time of day..say it's noon so I am going to eat lunch or the simple rumble in their tummy that is more likely digestion starting after they smelled something appetizing and began salivating......I guess I was really counting on this response going away but unfortuneately it hasn't. I am struggling-but not with eating too much because I obvioulsy can't, but more with the need to eat and the looooooooooong liquid phase. I have eaten food, I am not going to lie and I am not going to recommend others do it but I had a bite of well cooked pasta, some soy crisps and a vegi or two from the soups I have been straining.

You know I finally had my 1st appointment with the surgeon...welll I was SUPPOSED to see the surgeon

I even called ahead of me leaving to make sure he was running on time and when I got there they told me he wasn't even in the office

I saw the NP who looked at the questionaire I filled out, said I looked like I was doing well and asked if I had any questions then sent me on my way. I wasn't even there for 5 minutes. I was so dissappointed. I feel like they have left me to sink or swim which is basically what they do and what is necessary BUT I don't like it. All this head stuff going on and I spent over 3 months in weekly sessions at an eating disorder clinic. Thought the rest was in the bag......this really goes deeper than what you think the issues are.

Here are some things I am concerned about:

#1 I never get a feeling of fullness. Now, I may not be getting enough in to feel it-which is probably the case-but I am, of course, wondering if I have a super sized pouch.

#2 I feel like I am sabotaging myself (the bites here and there) but upon further inspection I rationalize that when I can finally EAT a meal, instead of slurp it, that this constant (head) hunger will go away.

#3 I no longer have the nasty taste in my mouth and I am thinking of buying the strips you urinate on to see if I am in ketosis still......kind of feel like I ruined it by eating that vegtable LOL

#4 I feel wonderful.....silly thing to be concerned about right?.....but for real I feel like a million bucks. Some days I don't even need a nap (of course others I am whipped just spending 2 hours at Chuch E Cheeses) I feel too lucky to succeed.......does that make sence? Like I should be suffering more to be worthy of this great tool. Now that I have it in print I will knock on wood because I feel like I am tempting fate

(knock, knock)

Blah, blah, blah, blah......I have totally rambled but this is what was important to me today. Tomorrow will be another struggle with food and hopefully a little less and then even less the next day. As with all things, one day at a time right?