Need to vent
Sorry to be such a buzz kill all the time, but i am so depressed. I still dont feel well, am still in some pain, still taking pain killers. I started back to work on Tuesday, and i have yet to put in a full day, becuz i get tired, or pain. I am just so tired of feeling like this.
My husband is frustrated (sexually)and prolly otherwise (sorry if that is TMI) I just cant make him understand how i feel. I am not getting any damn pleasure either, so what is the problem. I just dont get men and sex. He has NEVER been supportive. I dont know if he just doesnt know how, or what, but it is really getting on my nerves. I dont like being made to feel guilty, or like i am a bad wife, cuz i am not giving it up.
I cant seem to eat much without getting nausea afterward. I have been drinking my protein shakes, but not religiously. I have not been taking my vitamins religiously either, but am trying.
I dont ever feel like doing anything.
I have a Company Christmas Party in Early Dec, but i have no idea what will be served, can i eat? Should i bring something? No one knows what type of surgery i had except my boss & his wife, so i will feel awkward bringing something.
Oh, yes and mustnt forget, now i cant seem to go to the bathroom. (bm) again sorry if TMI, I have not gone for 2 days. I am pretty sure that is why my tummy is in such pain for the last 2 days. I was going to try Milk of Mag, or Benefiber. Which do you suggest?
When will this ever end?
Sorry for ranting, but i do feel a bit better.
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Danette 
LAP 08/22/05
Surgery for Obstruction 10/5/05 
Highest/Pre-op/ Current/Goal
311/301/ 196/to be under 200 lbs
BMI 56/53/ 38 
5'2" Short
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