you know what, yes we were that big. keep it in your head. I have a confession. I carry a picture around with me. A picture of me that was taken in January of 2005, it was at work, It was taken from the side, I was looking at the camera and smiling, but you could tell, how uncomfortable I was. I was 440 lbs, and dying-at a rapid rate. I am getting closer to my goal, i actually revised my goal today. It was 220, but I changed it to 200. When I started I never thought I would see 220, but as of this morning I am 9 lbs away from that...........But back to my confession. I look at that picture everyday. Not more than a few seconds, I don't dwell, but When I look at it, I sometimes do not even recognize myself. I never thought I ever looked that bad, but you know what......I did look that bad. I want to remind myself, everday if only for 2 seconds, yes-i did look that bad, and yes this is a life long fight, and yes things could change, and I could gain weight again. It is not an obsession, just a quick friendly reminer to myself. To never loose sight of my goal. My goal is not really a number, but a feeling.
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Open-RNY 02/10/2005
Dr. Hill-AMC, NY
439/183/185
BMI 57.9/24.1/24.4
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