Originally Posted by fisher1000

I think we ALL go through this to a degree...and on a daily basis it fluctuates from "why the hell did I do that" to "why the hell didn't I do it ten years ago?"

Believe me, the emotional roller coaster you are on is way harder to deal with than the actual surgery, but as you hit weight loss milestones, it will get easier, and life will get more fun, and you'll stop wondering what you've done to yourself.

Just know that normalcy doesn't come back in one fell swoop--you build up to it, and it just takes awhile. The best thing you can do is get the feelings out, whether it's jumping on here and sharing with everybody, beating the pillows on your bed, or riding down the road with Metallica turned all the way up. (Which is what I did---well, DO!)

But if you really need a definite answer, whether you felt as if you were big enough or not big enough--you still did this to save your life. In the long run, when you are obese, you are virtually guaranteed risks and problems, at least now you've done something to help keep that from happening.

In essence, you've become a hero for yourself. Believe in that.

-Mike