How far out are you? I will tell you that I 100% felt the same way that you do the first few weeks. Then, when the weight started coming off and I was able to tolerate different foods, the fear was GONE! Now I can HONESTLY say this has been the best decision I've EVER made!
When I woke up from surgery, honestly, my first thought was "shit! I can't go back now! What have I done to myself?"
It gets better dear! Hang in there!
