I have worked at the same company all my adult life. Literally- I was 17 when I started in the mailroom and have worked for several different departments from customer service to my current role as a data analyst. Now after what will be 19 years (July 2nd) I will no longer have a job as of November 15th 2009. I am so numb right now; I really don’t know what I feel. I’m scared, angry and sad all at once and can not turn to my old friend food.
When I came home yesterday I just sat on the couch and thought I want a Whooper or a bacon cheeseburger. I decided to go to the gym to work out the frustrations. I then just found myself sore and numb. I keep hearing from people how this will be a blessing in disguise. All I can think about is how hard it will be to find any job, let alone one that pays as well as this one did. I have my kids, my wife and a new house to take care of. Suddenly just being fat seems like a small problem and the weight I have lost seems so insignificant.
I don’t think I am asking for answers I am just trying to vent. I know there are no answers and nothing anyone can say to make me feel better. Today I would settle for just feeling something- anything but numb.
