Surgery is frightening, no doubt. This decision that you have to make has to be weighed accordingly.
Liver shrinkage----if isnt small as they think it should be the worst that will happen is that they conduct an open style surgery in order to not damage your liver.
The wishy-washy aspect of your life without food isnt as bad as you might think. Yes we all have used food as a crutch. It is comforting, but like any drug if it cant be controlled it will kill you. Sorry for the scare.
Lets be real. You seeked a doctor, went through many hoops, talked to a billion people about it and if you are ready. Those people think you are ready, why dont you????
I think you are being hard on yourself for no reason. Forget food, forget surgery, forget all the stress in your life. What do you want for yourself? Is it to be obese, I think not. Is it to struggle walking up stairs, i think not. Finding clothing that fits and looks good, I think not. You want what everyone else wants. A healthy, happy, long life. Maybe you can have some of these while being obese, maybe not.
You are a 26 year old male, you can vote, drink, fight and die for your country. Be a man and dont use needles as an excuse to not have surgery. If your not ready then say that. Dont blame an inanimate object. Plus tell them you freak-out over needles they will give you some oral meds to put you in a nice and easy state.
Sorry to sound like a dick. You just need to step back and think about what you want your quality of life to be.
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Erik
April 09 Surgery--Weighed 430
June 09 Weight 360
July 09 Weight 343
"Be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid of standing still"
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