Can't Wait For That Fill...
Well, I'm 3 weeks out now and now I know why they said this would be the hardest week. I'm hungry again and it's clear to me now that I desperately need a fill so my band can restrict more and I can feel fuller.
Work has been so insanely busy that I'm not working on my diet the way I should. I've been having these terrible days where I start with a cup of coffee in the morning and then realize at 4 or 5 that I haven't had a thing to eat. My blood sugar bottoms out and I feel like crap.
Then I tend to eat to fast and feel horrible for stuffing my little pouch, which lets me know I screwed up. In many ways, I like the reinforcement that I have to abandon my old ways. I'm slowly getting there, but when I get busy I tend to revert to my old habits.
I found that I've stopped losing weight. I'm not gaining any weight, but I'm not losing any more, which is frustrating. Another victim to my insane schedule is some of my exercise. I've been great about getting out on my bike and doing a lot of walking and even some mild jogging. However, I can see the writing on the wall... I can't let myself be too busy to get in the exercise. As a self pay on my surgery, there's some extra incentive not to screw this up. I spent a lot of money on this and I don't want to waste that investment.
I just need to get through 7 more days and then I get back that wonderful feeling of satiety that I'm craving.
Tmac
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Tmac
Surgeon: Dr. Trace Curry
surgery date: June 1, 2009
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