Originally Posted by jerseygrl684

i'm not looking for pity or anything.. i think i kinda need to just get this off my chest.

So, as you all know my sister has been sick from post-op WLS complications. Multiple surgeries, pain, picc lines, not being able to disgest anything.. etc etc. Well in some of my posts I care, and in some i'm very blah about her.

Since the age of 13, my sister has been absolute HELL. Running away, being arrested(multiple times), sent to juvi, sent to a group home, sent to something called Carrier clinic (in nj), moved to my dads, has never held a job down for more than a week if that, moved out to her bfs, bf broke up, she moved home, moved with her friend to an apt (which my mom paid/pays) for, ruined her car, got a new car from mom, got dui, mom paid for lawyers/tickets/etc. She's now smoking a pack a day and smoking weed.

Basically my mom has dropped her entire life for this girl who is on a downward spiral. I dont know if shes addicted to the drugs or what, but on fri night at 2 am she went into this screaming psychotic episode about this bug in the bathroom and pushed herself into my room and tried to kill me. Mom actually jusitfies it. It blows my mind. Today is what threw me over the edge. They aparently went to the doctor and they told her that they dont know if she will ever get better. My mom proceeds to tell me "you're heartless, you dont know what it's like to have someone tell u that about ur kid, your sis just got an eviction notice"... So she was like can you watch the pup, while we foodshop, i said... oh thanks, no food for me? jokingly.. shes like ' ARE YOU DYING? NO I DONT THNK SO"

So they came home, my sister was on another episode of psychoticness, and I was yelling back.. mom hit me and i was like THAT IS IT, IVE HAD IT YOU ARE AN ENABLER AND IT NEEDS TO STOP. YOU HAVE 2 KIDS, DO YOU FAIL TO REMEMBER THAT FOR THE PAST 10 YRS?

I don't know what else to do.. Really I am at a point of no return. It kills me to go through this.. My own mother basically is like "fck off" and just throwing away everything she works for.. for this kid. I don't know what I can handle. I continue to job hunt, but i will not move in with my bf (we arent ready for that), but right now im unemployed and just.. I dont think I can move into the new place with mom when we make the move. I don't know what way to turn, im not sleeping.. i have horrible pains in my stomach, im sick to my stomach. Honestly i'm not a bad kid at all. I may be a bitch on here at times, but I am trying to change. I just feel so alone within my own family, it kills me.

I dont know how many of you even made it this far, but thanks for listening. I'm just at a loss right now more than anything.