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Originally Posted by jerseygrl684
I just feel like this piece of shit kid. I really do, and I don't think it is fair at all.
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Sugar pea, I hate reading your story it makes me sad. I can relate somewhat to your pain.
If you are looking from kudos from your folks you are going to drive yourself crazy waiting for it. Trust me on this. Almost 2 years ago I was in an out patient psychiatric treatment program due to break down that I had. I learned alot about me, and the people in my life.
1. YOU; practice the 6 R's;
REST: know your limits, rest when you can
RELAXATION: excessive thinking isnt good, find books you enjoy or a class you can attend
RX: meds and vitamins
REFLECTION: Not asking why but look at; What is my role in life? How did I get here? How have have the choices I've made effected my life? What changes do I want to make?
REBUILDING YOUR LIFE: Small steps sugar pea
REJOICE: You are on your way
These 6 steps are posted in my home to remind me daily when I feel life spiriling out of control. They occur from MY choices, regardless of desperation or circumstance. Dont make excuses for it, own it and then rebuild your life.
2. Your parents did the best job they did, no matter how you feel about it. You have to accept the fact you arent going to get an apology, a hug, praise or any thing. I waited for it from my dad, I thought one day he would turn around and see Im a good kid and miss not being more active in my life. Its never going to happen because it's not in my dads personality or demeanor. I have to love him (if I choose to) knowing I cant change anything about him. When I accepted that my parents did the best and do the best they can it helped me. Regardless of how crappy pf a job it was, it molded me to be a better parent, friend and partner.
3. Ask your mom, how can I help? Maybe that could get a dialogue rolling. Maybe your job could be your sisters caregiver and you can draw income from that.
What I have shared with you has effectively reshaped my life, my thought processes and ho I handle stressful situations. Not many people know about my break down and my need for intensive Psych care. I hope what I have learned helps you too.
Love you sister!
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