Oh Kelly,
I have SO been there! My little sister had alot of issues when we were younger also. Ran away, told mom to screw off..mooched off us for YEARS. I would feel so angry because my mother would go running for her and tell me to deal with my own stuff on my own.
I can't say it will change. It took me moving the hell out of there and getting my own place before I could have a decent relationship with either one of them. It still sucks. Sis is married and is doing very well now, but doesn't do squat for my mom and it hurts her alot. She is hardly there for me either. I do all this stuff for my mother ALL the time. I watch my handicapped aunt who lives with her while she is on business trips. My sister, if the subject is brought up doesn't even offer to help or even calls while my aunt is at my house. I think she is being totally selfish. In a sense I am very jealous she can do that. But I am not like her. Tell me why, I put all this effort into this and still be second to my sister? My mother still bends over backwards for her. I then realized Kelly, that I am jealous. I am jealous because I feel I have to "do" all these things to win my mothers affection. I really do not. But I still do it. I dont know if you have any of these kind of feelings, but living in that situation is not going to make things any better, ever. Moving out and doing stuff on your own, and putting the space there will do you wonders.
It is not a matter of what you can handle now Kelly. It is a matter of how much are you going to take before you put YOU in the hospital from being too stressed, sick and not eating?
You know I'll be here for you. Hit me up if you need me k?
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Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.
Elaina
Surgery Date: 10/17/08
Weight before fun milk diet: 334
Current Weight 214
Century Club 4/20/09
Next Stop: Onederland!
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