Turn your face to the sun.....
Well, I've been so deeply inspired by folks on here such as Trish29 and Aviator, that here I am starting my own Story. Where do I start? I guess I can finish the quote for you:
Turn your face to the Sun, and the shadows will fall behind you. ~Maori Proverb.
I am a lover of quotes, and this is one of my favorites. It's all about moving forward and leaving the problems behind. I'm ready for this, SO READY! I'm a 25 year old starting to feel trapped in an 80 year old body. I'm basically healthy, but over the last few months (ironically, since I decided to have WLS) my bones and joints and back have all started to ache and hurt and give out on me. Maybe it's these last, and most recent, 50 pounds I put on last year. Either way, I am now 16 days away from surgery and I'm so ready!! Did I mention how ready I am?? LOL.
I've spent my entire life as a fat kid. I started early, as the youngest of 3 and my mom's "buddy"... we would pig out together when we were sad or lonely or one of us had a bad day. Healthy, right? So clearly I have developed a seriously screwy relationship with food. In high school, I wasn't thin but I carry my weight well... You know how they say hindsight is 20/20? Boy are they right. I can look back at those pictures and I was CUTE! I weighed around 200lbs when I graduated from High School. I felt fat. Anyways, in the 7 years since, I have proceeded to put on another 90 lbs. I put on about 40-50 in the first 2 years or so, held steady and then last year I put on the rest. And it is definitely taking it's toll on my body.
So here I am. I have all my pre-op requirements mostly done. My Nutrition and Psych evals are scheduled for next week, Lab draw will be next week and then just the hospital registration and paying my fees. WOW. I am in disbelief. Sometimes it feels like this is happening to someone else. And as ready and excited as I am- I'm scared!! I'm nervous!! I've never had major surgery or been hospitalized.... which sounds funny coming out of my own brain. I'm a surgical Nurse in a Hospital.... it shouldn't be scary but I think it is the finality of it. ::Sigh::
Alright, I'll sign off for now. I feel like I am just rambling anyways. I hope that I will be able to use this thread as a way to track my own progress... I am so excited to see these pounds melt away!!
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