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Originally Posted by Aviator
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Thanks, Av. Day 2 put the ol' ego in check as I started to experience the real pain without the surgery meds still in my body. Aside from a little bit of pain, I've managed to skip taking any of the pain meds that came home with me. I'm not trying to be a hero, but I like feeling where I stand so I have a better recognition of my improvement. Besides, it really doesn't hurt very much.
Today was a great day. I walked around the lake with my kids and enjoyed watching them throw rocks into the lake and chase after minnows.
As for thinking about my personal future, this was a huge day.
Tonight I experienced the first real hunger since getting home from the procedure. I think as my body was in shock yesterday, so I didn't really want to eat. Well, about 3 hours after that walk I was suddenly famished. I found myself in that familiar place...hanging out in the kitchen.
I opened the fridge and found some pudding. After slowly eating that, I wasn't full. So I opened a small cottage cheese container and ate that. That's about 1/4 cup more than I was told I should eat. Well, about 3 minutes later, I hugely regretted eating that second item as I felt my new "full" as the pouch above my band was clearly pressing under my rib cage and against to top of my diaphragm. I was uncomfortably full.
At first, I was miserable because I was thinking about how I just fell right back into an old trap. Then I started to feel positively giddy. I realized that I just got stuffed on 1 cup of food. It's so wonderful to know that I now have a helper that's going to really make me feel full sooner. AND, I was full for 3 hours.
Every diet that I've tried in the past has started out great and I've lost weight...then there was the slip. And another. And another. At the beginning of each of those diets I always had a hopeful, yet fatefully negative attitude as I knew I was fighting an uphill battle with my physiology. Today, my physiology lost! Now, I'm in control and it feels awesome.
I can't begin to share how profound this feels to me. The whole world just got a hue brighter and I'm, for the first time in a while, thinking about the very real ability to drop this weight for good and fundamentally change my life.
Yes, loser's bench. Here I am and I plan to be here, well, for the rest of my life!
Tmac