I'm scared and excited at the thought of being able to go to the swapmeet, going to the movies, riding an airplane to see my honey and not having to ask for a seatbelt extender and having a comfortable ride, going to the mall and being able to walk around, having kids and being able to play and run and enjoy life with them, when I get married being able to physically STAND at the end of the isle without any pain in my back or sweating like a pig. That's the things that make me so incredibly excited about even thinking about getting this done.
0o0o that makes me so happy to even think about having a pain free day.
The things that scare me shitless are dying, getting an infection, dying...did I say dying? I know that eventually if I don't do this I will die young so really on the SLIGHT chance that I would die from having this then atleast I know I tried to make my life longer.
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The pros out weighed the cons by miles."...they seem too. Thank you for your comment. It was awesome, atlleast I know I'm not alone on the obsessing over it and over insurence.
I just really want to be healthy and be able to have a life instead of hiding inside away...
