I obsessed a lot. I was scared, and excited at the same time. I was scared that I was going to die and my kids would have no mother. I was scared that I was making the worst mistake of my life.
At the same time I was excited that I would finally go out and be social with people instead of hiding. I wouldn't be depressed. I could see my kids grow up and I could do things with them without the other moms staring at me and snickering. I was excited that I would be able to finally ride rides at an amuesment park and sit in a plane seat without an extender. Being excited to actually fit in a movie theater seat! I can go on and on lol I was excited that I would have my life back that obesity took from me for all of my adult life so far.
The pros out weighed the cons by miles. Don't get me wrong, I was obsessing right up until they wheeled me in the OR. You know what though? It was the best damn decision I have ever made in my life. The only regret I have is that I wish I had done it sooner.
As for the insurance part...I obsessed about that too, I drove everyone mental. They just said stop thinking about it until you get an answer....it wasn't doing me or anyone around me any good.
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Open RNY 9/20/04
260/127 
Abdominoplasty 09/21/06
Size 24 to a 0!
Height 5'8"
BMI 40/18.9
My profile on OH.com
Before & After pics
"The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight because by then, your body and your fat are really good friends"~Anonymous
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