Facing a helluva reality head on - Page 4 - ThinnerTimes

Phoenixfire · 07-08-2008, 10:08 PM

Beth wrote:

Unveiled

A naked form sits in obscurity
at the root of a willow tree.
Veiled behind slivered leaves
bathed in hues of yellow-green.

Postured in a child’s fragility;
arms wrapped around knees.
Encircled by angel tears
and murmurs to just believe.

Beth, from the copyright date and sharing that you wrote a flood of poetry before surgery, I'm going to presume that you wrote this when you were "the old Beth" right? Well...when I read it I saw such a contrast, and this is what came to my mind. I guess it's a compare/contrast illustration of our journey perhaps...

Unveiled (Redux)
WLS strips off the obscurity of obesity
and reveals the roots of our true self
We stop hiding behind Adam & Eve's leaves of shame
and emit our own uniquely beautiful hue

Our stance is one of a fully-grown woman
Our arms are spread to embrace life and the world around us
Emboldened with our own strong voice
We learn to trust our new strength
And it never leaves us alone

Beth, your words just jumped at me and I "saw" this "redux". I hope you're not offended, because what you wrote was BEE-OOOTIFUL. And those two lines...sigh...they took me back

It's good to hear that you were encouraged awhile ago by some wise women that said to hang in there until the RIGHT thing came along. And from what you say, THIS sounds like the right thing. I can't wait to hear what happens as the year draws to an end!

And I'm reading my own words to you, because I need to remember and apply them to my own fears!

Phoenixfire · 07-08-2008, 10:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Baja Big Dog

OK tough guy, Im dying to know how "Jackass 3" comes out, Im guessing he will be sittin in the corner of his office, whimpering, possibly sucking on his thumb, and shaking when her heres you coming, tell him his mommy is on her way in!!! Guys just hate to get beat up by a GIRL!!! I somehow think you may emerge from this confrontation on the good side.

Good luck with the jackass (just a phrase, I know you wont need it) just dont hurt the guy, I can see this guy at the dinner table, trying to describe how this 130 pound Tasmanian devil whooped his ass, the kids will get a laugh out of it, and his wife will probably be proud!! Then again, maybe over the weekend he will come to his senses, and realize you get more honey from sugar than from vinegar (or something like that).

Anyway have a good one and let me know how it went, (jackass, and the cat!)

No report on the cat, the big cheese is on vacation.
But the little man? He's on his best behavior. I think his Vegas week vacation did him a world of good. I can imagine how he spent it, and kudos to him for getting whatever mental stress relief he needed. It shows! I figure he got what he needed

Oh, and the dude ain't married, no way. He has, as I told him, some serious issues with women. I couldn't imagine what DOORMAT would marry him, but he's young...he'll grow out of it. Maybe. I am indeed killing him with kindness along with my great ability to treat his clients like kings and queens. So he's got no room to bitch. Well, he may find one, but it won't be easy. And if he does? Well then I know how to say "oops, my bad."

Ya know it seems like the lessons we need to learn in life keep coming to us through different people, but it's the same lesson. So I'm actually chuckling when I see His Highness act out. It reminds me that I'M THE ONE learning the lesson here. What he learns is all on him

Thanks dude for the peptalk. And I'll have to trust you with that secret info on my WLS rule violation

Miss Sweet Fire

MiladyB · 07-08-2008, 10:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Phoenixfire

Beth, your words just jumped at me and I "saw" this "redux". I hope you're not offended, because what you wrote was BEE-OOOTIFUL. And those two lines...sigh...they took me back

It's good to hear that you were encouraged awhile ago by some wise women that said to hang in there until the RIGHT thing came along. And from what you say, THIS sounds like the right thing. I can't wait to hear what happens as the year draws to an end!

And I'm reading my own words to you, because I need to remember and apply them to my own fears!

No, Ms Fire. I most certainly am not offended. And yes, that was written from the perspective of the "old Beth". I posted that poem because it came to mind as I quietly murmured to myself, to once again "just believe". Those are two words I have said to myself often on this journey....even as I made the decision to have wls. I kept feeling those angel wings around me and their murmurs to "just believe."

Your "redux"? Well it drew my thoughts to the changes I have most certainly seen in myself over the past 2 years. And the vision that my words brought to you?...the contrast?....it most certainly is an accurate word picture of where I see myself today.

I was once a child of shadows...

Shadowed Child

I am a child of shadows
afraid to touch the light.
My domicile's darkness,
day eclipsed to night.

Veiled in ambiguity
by walls, cliffs and trees.
Enfolded in dark forms,
tucked with bent knees.

I sit with opened hands
palmed to spirits of the day
and beckon them to join
in shadowed secure play.

The soft luster of daybreak
teases vulnerable walls,
crumbling from intensity
of haunting demon calls.

I tremble, as long fingers
reach from the other side.
Beneath a phantom's cloak
I burrow deep and hide.

©BAR
01/26/99

...today I am a woman of light....strong and whole....and I am loving the gift of being able to actually live, life!

....keep murmuring those words to yourself, Ms Fire....because you too are a strong woman who has been empowered to believe!