Wow, it's like I've just been graced with the presence of the three wise men...or should I say three wise-asses? That is a joke...I think you guys will get it after reading some of your other posts.
Thank you all so much for your responses, and taking the time to read my story. I really am hopeful that this transformation will come out with me being in control of a lot of things that in the past I once just settled for, thinking that this was just gonna be the best thing that was going to come along so I had to make it work, no matter the cost (usually my sanity). I already feel like I am more in control, that becoming healthier and having more self-esteem will only reinforce healthier decisions that I can actually stick to, rather than put to the side after a few days because I feel lonely and unlovable.
And Baja, as much as I'd love to tell my dad to kiss my ass once I'm healthier, I won't have to, because every day that he sees me he's going to feel like shit that he could never experience this for himself! He's going to be so jealous it's going to hurt just as much as any words ever could.
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