Even when you have all the information available.....it still doesn't fully prepare you for your own reality. Age may have granted some wisdom, and this surgery is foreign to us. We are such unique and complex individuals.....
I was quite prepared...my ex had the WLS 2 years before me, I'm a nurse who researched years with him, and then myself, I was in therapy for many years pre-op and post-op.....it's still a hit when it all happened....all the changes, physical, emotional, spiritual, sexual, mental, etc.....
I have no regrets.....I have a great life after surviving the initial shock. I am sad that I had to make choices that caused me take different paths. Life now is no where near what I had ever thought it would be like. Then again, with the passing of time, we all experience a new perspective.
Keep on chugging along...you're not alone in your feelings or how you express yourself.
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