Kim, I remember having the same thoughts and feelings as you. You would think I would have been thrilled that I didn't want to eat but every meal depressed me. Like you I wondered if I would ever me able to enjoy the taste of food again. All I wanted was to feel 'normal'.
The enjoyment for me returned. It was gradual but it did come back. Sure I do still have my non-eating days but most of the time I enjoy sitting down to a meal.
For me it took about a year before I could sit down and usually enjoy the food that was on my plate.
Try to not be too hard on yourself Kim. Your feelings and frustrations certainly are shared by many.
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~Beth~
Little Victories; Grand Rapids, MI
Bariatric Support Group
Diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, high cholesterol,
peripheral vein disease, joint pain and 210 lbs GONE!! 
Century Club: July 3, 2006
ONE-derland: Dec. 22, 2006
Double Century: May 29, 2007
Goal: June 15, 2008
Lap RNY: 1/30/06-Dr Randal Baker
TT/BL: 09/21/07-Dr Ronald Ford
PS Revisions: 04/29/08-Dr Ronald Ford
Gallbladder: 05/14/08-Dr Randal Baker
Emergency surgery (Intussusception): 02/29/09-Dr James Foote
"...if we pay attention to the fact that we can move,
breathe, feel, laugh, cry and notice sunsets,
there IS cause for joy." 
- Geneen Roth
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