Do I give myself enough credit? Probably not. As I sit here, 1 1/2 years post op, I have been at goal for more than half that time, yet NOW I want to lose 5 pounds... why? I think Im just use to the idea of always having to try and lose weight. Its hard to shake that kind of thinking, Im used to the battle of attempting to lose. I thought I would be free of it, Im not yet free.
Also, I thought (in the back of my mind) that life would get a little easier being thin, no more stares or people mooing at me, or just being generally unkind. But people still avoid me, Im tired of hearing the word "intimidated" but I have to adjust. It always seems through our WLS lives we have to keep adjusting to other people, i.e Marina talking about people think she's better than everyone else because she refuses donuts. We clam up, at the expense of someone else being a creep. Oh well, I guess we have to keep adjusting, accepting and learn to be a little easier on ourselves at all.
Any suggestions on how we can do that? We need to give ourselves a daily reward, I think that will help!
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J.Bridget Fisher aka koi-pea
2/9/04 lap 5'11"
298/170-trying to lose another 10
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What Sawyer would call me on LOST: ladybug
"People will argue with you that getting what you want in life isn’t something you can learn, if you’re destined to be one of the worlds winners as opposed to one of its perpetual whiners, its because you have been born with the right talents and temperament and have a big dose of self-esteem, ambition, and good judgment." Kate White
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