First of all *big tight hug*....yes and yes to all of your post.
I don't care how much 'research' anyone does and how many 'pre' therapist talks or visits they have it's nothing like actually experiencing this first hand.
It is a very emotional time for you and you often times feel more alone when you are surrounded by your family. Cooking for them, is not the same. Being around them is not the same. Being with your spouse...is not the same. You know why? Cause you are not the same anymore. You have made a major commitment to be healthier and gigantic step in the love thyself department.
Nothing to feel bad about or sad over but I know that is easier said than done. I've been there and I went through the ' I want every man to see me now phase too and felt like my spouse was getting on my nerves and the kids too. Then I just flat out refused to cook anymore for like 2 weeks. Then would get all pissy cause I couldn't 'eat normal' which meant as before.
3 1/2 months later and I am so glad the emotions have calmed down considerably and that my family loves me as much as I love them. That they were able to help me pull through that and didn't take my outbursts so personal or to heart but instead tried to hold my hand even when I didn't want them to. You need it though, as much as you feel you don't.....you do. You need that support because the first few months are a wild trip and that's just the beginning.
Once you get past the crazy menstrual cycles and the weird feelings in your chest then you have the 'taste testing' time of new foods and then the 'oops I ate that too fast' time and then 'uh oh I need to find a private toilet in public' episodes. *lol*
But trust me, you are not alone in this. Never alone.
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Gastric Bypass R&Y March 20th 2008
Original weight = 210 lbs.
Goal Weight Set By Me = 110 lbs.
Current Weight = 158 lbs.
B.M.I. = 32.3
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