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Originally Posted by Phoenixfire
Beth, your words just jumped at me and I "saw" this "redux". I hope you're not offended, because what you wrote was BEE-OOOTIFUL. And those two lines...sigh...they took me back 
It's good to hear that you were encouraged awhile ago by some wise women that said to hang in there until the RIGHT thing came along. And from what you say, THIS sounds like the right thing. I can't wait to hear what happens as the year draws to an end!
And I'm reading my own words to you, because I need to remember and apply them to my own fears!  |
No, Ms Fire. I most certainly am not offended. And yes, that was written from the perspective of the "old Beth". I posted that poem because it came to mind as I quietly murmured to myself, to once again "just believe". Those are two words I have said to myself often on this journey....even as I made the decision to have wls. I kept feeling those angel wings around me and their murmurs to "just believe."
Your "redux"? Well it drew my thoughts to the changes I have most certainly seen in myself over the past 2 years. And the vision that my words brought to you?...the contrast?....it most certainly is an accurate word picture of where I see myself today.
I was once a child of shadows...
Shadowed Child
I am a child of shadows
afraid to touch the light.
My domicile's darkness,
day eclipsed to night.
Veiled in ambiguity
by walls, cliffs and trees.
Enfolded in dark forms,
tucked with bent knees.
I sit with opened hands
palmed to spirits of the day
and beckon them to join
in shadowed secure play.
The soft luster of daybreak
teases vulnerable walls,
crumbling from intensity
of haunting demon calls.
I tremble, as long fingers
reach from the other side.
Beneath a phantom's cloak
I burrow deep and hide.
©BAR
01/26/99
...today I am a woman of light....strong and whole....and I am loving the gift of being able to actually live, life!
....keep murmuring those words to yourself, Ms Fire....because you too are a strong woman who has been empowered to believe!
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Beth
Little Victories; Grand Rapids, MI
Bariatric Support Group
CherishedTeddyBear-(TT Bear Lover)
The Poetry of Milady
New Beginnings: My Journey to LIFE
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peripheral vein disease, joint pain and 216 lbs
GONE!! 
Century Club: July 3, 2006
ONE-derland: Dec. 22, 2006
Double Century: May 29, 2007
Goal: June 15, 2008
Lap RNY: 1/30/06-Dr Randal Baker
TT/BL: 09/21/07-Dr Ronald Ford
PS Revisions: 04/29/08-Dr Ronald Ford
Gallbadder removal: 06/09/08-Dr Randal Baker
"...if we pay attention to the fact that we can move,
breathe, feel, laugh, cry and notice sunsets,
there is cause for joy."
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