I completely understand Trina. There are days that I would just as soon not be bothered to eat anything. It gets exhausting sometimes to find things that are good for me and I can tolerate. I know I can't go without eating .. I'm just saying sometimes that option just seems to be easier.
Especially toward the end of the month when money is low and all that is left in the cupboards is freakin' Pasta stuff. I have taken to buying a few cans of different beans to keep in my room so they don't get eaten by the rest of the house
As you I have just accepted it as a way of life ... but sometimes it's just not all that easy to have things readily available to eat even when there is an abundance of food in the house.
My sister brought home some fresh baked Parmesan bread the other day and it smelled sooooo good ... but the thought of eating it just turned my stomach. I tried a very thin slice of bagel a few weeks ago .. toasted no less ... and after about 3 bites I was sick the rest of the day ... soooo I won't be trying that again any time soon.
Being one that doesn't feel hunger anymore I have to eat by the clock ... and even then sometimes it just doesn't want to go down ... like I haven't fully digested from the last meal or something.
The only way I can tell if I am truly hungry is if I start getting a headache or start getting really antsy.
.. and if I get busy doing stuff ... I can go for hours and hours with no food ... I just don't have that trigger anymore to make me think about it.
... you mentioned opening the fridge and seeing a lot of food - I feel overwhelmed sometimes by food choices if I am out to a relative or even if my brother in law has been cooking up a storm. I get scared I am going to pick something that won't settle right.
I've just chalked it up to good days and bad days. Maybe today I can have a bit of tuna ... but tomorrow it's going to make me throw up for hours. Maybe today I can have some chicken .. but maybe tomorrow it will refuse to stay down.
The not knowing is what kills me. So far the ONLY type of food I can count on not disagreeing with me on occasion is Soy and vegetable proteins.
Bleh .. I feel like I rambling .. I hope this made some sense
