Duuuuude ...
Last Tuesday I went to a friends house. I haven't seen him for 5 months. And everytime we used to get together we always grilled steak and sat by the outdoor fire pit all night drinking margarita's.
So when he picked me up, I decided "Screw It! I'm going all balls out tonight!" Of course I couldn't eat anything, but I did have two shots of tequila AND two cigarettes. Smoking made me really lightheaded (wasn't fun) and the alcohol left me a mangled mess on the patio. I got instantly drunk, then sobered up in about 30 minutes. Then I had the second shot, got drunk again and went to bed. When I woke up in the morning I had the biggest hangover of my life. It was so brutal, I've never ever felt so horrible. I litterally had a 24 hour hangover.
I couldn't enjoy any food ... so I went over board with everything else. I just wanted so badly to "Enjoy" myself again. What a friggin' mess I was. I do NOT want a repeat performance.
So yes, I absolutely understand needing to look somewhere other than food to feel good. And it SUCKS!
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OPEN RNY: 03/06/08
OPEN HERNIORRHAPHY: 09/18/08
OPEN SURGERY FOR STAPH MRSA REMOVAL: 10/04/08
AND MY GUTS ARE STILL OPEN!!!
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