I'm seeing the Nut & the surgeon this AM.. I guess I have been worried about this, or maybe it's in response to the two threads on here yesterday regarding newbies eating what they shouldn't be eating and what not... but last night I had a dream (NIGHTMARE!) that I ate not just the toppings off a small slice of pizza, but the entire pizza- no problems and I was shocked and dismayed with myself and scared that if I was able to eat it all I was going to stay fat forever.
I've lost 73 lbs since that first appointment with my surgeon back in Nov of '07. I still have more than that to lose and I'm scared that I won't be able to get there..
I will admit right here and now that I have to work hard to fight the jealous and envious feelings I get when someone posts to having had their surgery before or near my surg. date and they've lost 20, 30, 40+ pounds more than me..(then when they admit they're eating junk I think WHAT??) So I wonder WTH am I doing that is so wrong?
I walk three times a day, some for 15 to 20 minutes and one that is at least 30 minutes... plus I am very physically active at other times.. I get in WAY more than my 10,000 recommended steps a day. I eat my proteins, I track my calories (ranging from about 650 to 900 a day), I track my fluids. I get to eat so little now that I want to make sure it is *good* stuff going in...
Even when I'm online here reading posts, I never read more than a couple before I get up and do something, unless I am chatting with people (which is why I don't go into the chat more often than I do.. I could easily spend all night sitting here talking to people..I love talking with friends
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So anyway, I'll post back later with what the docs have to say. I'm anxious to get copies of my blood work results, though I will have to wait a while for that.. I *really* am looking forward to seeing my A1C.... a year & a half ago, my A1C was in the 6's... it has gone up as high as 9.4 when my BG went skyrocketing out of control and so I am anxious about this one the most! I've only used insulin twice in the last month as I haven't needed it, so it should be a good number!
(ooops! forgot to hit SEND LOL..).. will report the details of the appointment later.. on my way out, though.