Hey Megan, I just wanted to say first that I love Tyra, especially on America's Next Top Model. Ok now that that's said.........
I think denial, comes from fear, comes from guilt, comes from protecting, comes from hoping... and many other jumbled emotions that are swimming inside the head of someone who is obese. I did not see this show, however I can so much relate to what the woman were saying about themselves.
When I was 38, weighing around 412 lbs, I was believing that I was uniquely special because I was healthy, no high blood pressure, good chlolestral, I walked the trails at my favorite nature places, traveled and did what I wanted in life. That feeling was my public feeling, the feeling I told myself over and over to find the courage to go out my front door and dare to live inside the body I so much hated. Like previously stated, I did what I needed to survive and make myself feel better inside, even if it was a lie. Then at 39 came infections in my abdominal fat layers that put me in the hospital, diabetis that was dangerously out of control and put me in the hospital, eccelerated artheritis in my hips that took away my freedom of movement, my body had finally been caught up with and I still told myself I was healthy and that I could loose the weight to show the world I was in control. Again more denial and self defeating protecting.
My heart goes out to others who struggle in this manner and I think today I would have to say when I look back, for me this was a real disease in itself, one that only an operation like laproscopic gastric bypass could bring down the mountain I had built up and make way to finding the path to true and real happiness, confidence and freedom from a nightmare that I kept on my body.
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Paul
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Paul
Laproscopic Gastric Bypass May 18, 2007, 205kg/(451 lbs)(BMI 71)/post op abdominoplasty(12-14-07 & 01-14-08) post-op hip surgery(2-27-08)currently 4-25-08 85kg(187lbs)(BMI 27) GOAL REACHED  265 lbs gone .
Goal 85kg(187lbs)ACHIEVED GOAL WEIGHT APRIL 25, 2008(11 Months & 6 days after LAPROSCOPIC GASTRIC BYPASS)
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