Oh my, Paul & Beth...
I just needed to read your words right now. I can't stop crying. I don't think I ever stopped being mad at myself for having to do this in the first place! After I snap, I feel so bad and I know it's because I want my misery to have some company. Yes, you're right, in oh so many ways.
I just want that 'get up and go' feeling, I guess the visual "scale" that I'm feeling better and lost at least 1 pound instead of carrying this bloat. My hair is dirty and I can't take a bath or shower.
I know I'm only 4 days post-op, but I feel like I should be swimming oceans, not still feel like I'm beached.
I truly appreciate you sharing with me. When you know that you are not alone in your emotions, than you can overcome.
I have to share what you wrote with my husband (I got the SO, but what's a DH?) so that he knows that I'm not directing at him personally and that I'll do my best to take his support in the most positive way.
Pause, Deep breath and go ON!
Thank you! ! !
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