Emotions, is this normal?
I'm on day 4 of 14 of my pre-op liquid hell diet and I wonder if my irratic emotions are normal.
I havent been 100% compliant with my diet, it's been much harder than I expected.
During the night of day 2-3, I was so hungry I was literlly shaking. I ended up eating a bowl of chili.
Yesterday I made the chili receipe from the forum and at first only had some of the juice. Later in the day I ended up having a small bowl.
Today I had a side salad with fat free dressing and the grilled chicken and while wheat bun from the sandwich...
needless to say I feel like a complete failure.
I dont eat b/c of emotion or boredom, I eat b/c I'm flat HUNGRY. I've only done this once per day, even tho it sounds like more....
Am I a failure? Am I doomed to fail at this?
And my emotions, I am SO MAD all the time. I bite the heads off everyone. Everything just really ticks me off.
And then again I feel like I'm going crazy, I could cry sometimes at the drop of a hat.
The DH is supportive but I can tell my ANGER is wearing him down.
Is this normal?
What can I do to wrap my mind back around this pre-op thing, the clear liquids...Will the hunger pass?
I fee like such a failure. I just want to sleep and be left alone.
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Lap RNY 5/15/08
Highest - 370 2/2004
Pre Op - 341 (at start of 2 week diet)
Current - 323.8 - 5/22/08
285 - 6/24/08
Goal ? To see daylight between my thighs. To have collarbones. To cross my legs without getting a cramp in my butt. To wear clothes from a regular store and NOT in the plus size department.
Dr Van Wagner, St Louis MO
http://www.myspace.com/ttoenyes
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