Hello every1, as you all know I'm new to this forum. descided to join to get info and some friends to talk to and support through the road that I am planing to travel. I feel like a loner right know even though I know some people that has had the surgery before. for the past 10 years I have always stated that I would never need surgery to lose weight and I would do it all my own, but the last 3 to 4 years I have struggled so hard to lose it and I am not getting very far. I feel like a failure, even though my boy friend ensures me that I'm far from a failure and I should not look at myself like that. This past year it has been a emotional rollercoaster for me, at this time last year I went on the aktins diet( last diet option) and I lost 50 lbs in the first six months then nothing, after 8 months of the diet I had to take a break because It was hard not losing anything and being on the diet. so I went off for a month then I notice me gaining it back so went back on it and still on it, I feel like I've gone back to where I have before when I went off it but not losing more. very frustrating for me. But I am on a pathway of going down another road. I have gone to a free orentation to have a weight loss surgery and have made an appointment to see a doctor on may 20th to discuss surgery. I was interested in the lapband surgery but my ins. doesn't cover it, people keep telling me that if I keep appealing the denials they will pay for it but I emotionally don't think I can deal with the denials and the fight with them. I'm convincing myself to go with the bypass, I have tons of questions for the dr. about the bypass when I see him but when I do my own homework on answering my own questions I found this site and I have found it has helped with some of my questions and hope it helps more by being part of the forum. Just hope I don't get treated like I did on other forums about the lapband. no one responded to any questions or would talk to me about anything to help.
The reason for needing to do something soon is because when I was 21 I had to have a hip replacement due to an accident when I was 17 and when it was giving to me my Dr stated that it would only be good for 10 years, in june it will be 14 years and my Dr. has yelled at me about the weight that I have gained through the years. You can say these are all excuses but I have gained due to losing my first baby when I was 8 months pregnant for her, then going into a bad depression for close to a year, then getting pregnant again and getting put on bed rest at 7 months of the pregnancy because I almost lost my son the same way as my little girl. then after I had my son my bf at the time left me for someone else and I went into another depression again. Then family helped me out and know in a great relationship and had another baby girl, yes was put on a high risk pregnancy for the third pregnancy but no problems. so yes I gained through 3 hard pregnancies, the lose of one child, and family problems, so food became my best friend. I have learned in the past few years how I was eating wrong and I try to eat the right way know but the damage is done and I am haveing trouble losing to get a fresh new start. Thats why I am thinking of turning to surgery. My Insurance will cover the bypass not the lapband. I have heard bad and good stories about both. I just hope I am making the right descition, any advice I could get from anyone would help me through what I'm going through. My mother has had the bypass, my aunt on my mothers side has had the surgery also, but was not very close to them when they went through all that. My mom has tried to start a good relationship with me in this past year and she encourages me to go for the lapband but I don't know
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I'm sorry if you all are confused with this letter, I wasn't sure how to start it or finish it. I'm confused myself
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I am usually a happy person but I have struggled alot lately with my weight and life that I have trouble being happy all the time. Oh my name is Gena and I hope this site works out for me
Thank you for your time.