Hi Girl.
I can so totally identify with a lot of what you are saying. I was miserable for what seems like the first 6 months, but really, I was most miserable about the mental changes I was making. It was so hard wanting to just feel normal again. I wanted to eat normal, move normal, BE normal, but I wasn't anymore. The changes your body are in the process of making are necessary and this is only the beginning. Although it will probably get a little worse before it's better, you WILL eventually feel better again.
I still struggle sometimes, wanting to just chow on a piece of pizza or burger. But I look at an old picture and I remind myself why I did this in the first place.
You probably still have yet to see any "real" results and that is depressing but you will. Hang in there. Your body is making a HUGE adjustment. I don't want to patronize you but you will feel better. You're going to go through some tough times so your body & mind can accept this new pouch... it'll be a struggle but you can do it.
Try to stay positive about what the future holds... try to look forward and have faith that it'll come in time. I know it's extremely hard but you can do it.
Let us know how you are doing. These boards literally saved me at times!
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RNY LAP March 30, 2005
244 pre-op / 125 current and holding!
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