Aloha,
I am 5 weeks out from laparoscopic R/Y surgery and my partner, Danita, is 6 weeks out. We are both extremely miserable. Through all our research on this surgery, no one let us know that there was going to be such depression afterwards. We can't eat anything we used to eat, no comfort food, no "normal" food....life just sucks right now. It's uncomfortable to eat, it's scary to eat, and we have to analyze everything we're about to put in our mouths. We never knew things were gonna be this difficult. Right about now we're asking ourselves, "what in the hell were we thinking?"
As if the normal aches and pains post surgery weren't enough, my left leg has been numb since the second I woke up from surgery. So, for 5 weeks my leg has been numb, but there is pain deep inside as well, AND when my clothing touches it, it feels like my skin is on fire. It's driving me nuts and I'm very worried. I spoke with my surgeon about it during my 3-week visit and he said to wait for my 6-week visit and see how it's going. I couldn't wait that long so I spoke to one of his nurses and she said that during surgery, they put a bofi (sp?) on my leg, which powers electricity to their coterizing tools and it just so happens that the exact part of my leg that is all jacked up, is the same spot they laid that "thing". She said that it can take 18 months for my leg to come back to normal - not what I wanted to hear. Anybody have this problem?
For the past 7 days I've been in almost excruciating pain in my left side. I'm guessing that maybe scar tissue has begun to form and now every time I move it's ripping away...I don't know what else it could be but it's as if I'm right back to square one. I was prescribed litacaine patches and they kind of help, but the pain is really deep so the patches only put a dent in the pain. Thank God for the refill of liquid Lortab but I can only take that at night time since I have to sit at work during the day time. It sucks though because I'm sitting in pain for 8 hours.
Anyway, Danita is doing much better than me and I'm wondering if it's because she's a week ahead of me. However, we are both very depressed and feel like we're living in pure hell and want to go back to the way we used to be. It's so difficult to see people on TV or anywhere, eating normally. We'd give anything to be able to eat normally again. This just really sucks and I really need somebody to tell me that this gets better. Danita has already lost 32 lbs in 6 weeks and I've lost 23 lbs in 5 weeks, however, I gained 2 lbs back as of today and she gained 1 lb back. Is this normal? How is that even possible when we're barely able to eat anything? God, with all the pain and B.S. I'm going through I don't need to be gaining my weight back already. I need to know that all this is FOR something...yanno? I need to see some results before I really go into a deep depression that I can't get out of. Any advice would be most helpful. Thanks for reading...
Miserably Yours,
Hawaiianese
