I'm putting this here, because I didn't want to start a whole new one to VENT.. it's sort of OT but not really. I ate cool whip yesterday. It was sugar free... but it is not calorie free. I did it in response to my ex finding out where I work, after guarding that information for 3 years. It was a careless thing that happened, our son emailed us both and since I was 'at work' it was my work email addy he used, totally without thinking, very innocent. I've managed to keep the fact that his father likes to send drunken diatribes about what a bad mother I am to my various emails and my cell phone from the children.
*anyway*.. as upsetting as that was, I'm more upset at my Pavlovian response, which is to eat crap that is not good for me. I didn't get sick, I didn't dump.. I stopped before any of that happened.. but I still did it, and I'm still really pissed off at myself for it
Instead of continuing to eat, I went to bed- it was around 8:30 and I had a killer headache at this point.. and though it was a fitful, I did sleep through till about 6ish this AM.
Then, it was about 7 am before I realized that by eating that crap last night and then going to bed, I had nothing prepared for my meals today. I managed to cobble together enough with protein bars and shakes and some cheese, to get my nutritional needs met.
I just need to do better next time in my response to how I deal with this stress. My ex can push me over the edge faster than anything
... he makes me crazy! ugh......