Yeah, I think I'm too scrawny. I'm afraid of putting on weight in the area it always goes: gut. Yes, at 130 I have no fat rolls.
But my face doesn't look healthy and my collarbone, chest looks scrawny. So I do want to gain a few.
Those pounds disappeared when I added school to my full plate of work, single mom and dealing with chronic pain and going though a drawn out breakup that we tried to make work but I'm not willing to keep trying to make into anything other than a friendship.
One day I just realized I was too thin. So my key goal is to gain it and round out a bit more womanly. Besides, I haven't had post-op plastics, so the loose skin looks TERRIBLE when you lose a few pounds. I think THAT is what bothers me the most. Yeah, people's comments are annoying, because I like being slim. But I'd like that body that felt good. Not so bony
Plus I'm afraid of wasting away to that dreaded 114 I will never forget!