Please keep me in your thoughts while I get over this
I find my self extremely depressed. Today I had my 3 months post op and it went ok, all is ok, blood work is ok, weight loss is good, keep it up, keep going, etc, etc. If I could of kissed the doctor I would off to see if it cheered me up for a minute, but offcourse that might of landed me on my but on the street in a flash, or he might of liked it who knows.
I feel has nothing to do with this surgery or it's progress, I sort of feel I am on cruise control on this area. Is the marriage area I can't seem to be able to handle anymore, I feel like jumping off a bridge, and I don't say that lightly or jokingly, If my kids did not depend on me, if no one did, I would not hessitate to just end it. I feel like I have a choice to make, and I only have two too choose from, divorce, or jump, and both of them are quite depressing.
There is a lot that leads to this, and honestly I don't feel like going into it right now as is much depressing and can't handle any more of it, just cry all the time, and no it's not pms, and no it's not hormonal, is me thinking things the way they are and it just sucks!
Now I am heading off to bed cause I don't want to feel.
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[font="Arial Black"]Height 5'2"
Most 400-Goal 130
11-07-07 / 1st doc Visit 385
1-07-08 / Pre-op 370
1-14-08 /1 week follow up 367
1-29-08 / 3 weeks post-op 350
3-31-08 / 3 months post-op 315
6-29-08 / 6 months post-op 274
7-21-08 / 264
(136 lbs Gone!-106 Since Surgery)
Lap RNY Date January 8th-08
TT Gym rat club member #77
Century Club 4-27-08
Twinderland 4-27-08
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