bridgetgirl

Its called being codependant. Its where you use outside things to make you feel good. If you think of it as that and not a "switcher" its easier to know whats going on with you. read about codependency. My switch was socialism, perscription painkillers and alcohol for awhile. Now its caffeine!!!!! But I know as a codependant person, when I find myself indulging in these self destructive behaviors frequently or daily I MUST stop! First it was food, that was my codependant tool.. it determined my mood, feelings and emotions. then it was 'liquid courage" alcohol, I was happy and carefree on it. then it was people, I was having parties, going to every event and overcommiting... as long as I was doing things to make others happy, I was happy...... see the trend? codependency doesnt have to be drugs, liquor and sex! It can be shopping too. I eventually found myself going into an outpatient psych treatment because I lost control and didnt know how to find ground zero. Im kind of grounded now, on antidepressants and living one day at a time and taking care of myself. I pretty much live by the twelve steps now. I hope to not relapse, but luckily I have the tools to assist me if I do. hi my name is Bridget, and Im codependant.

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J.Bridget Fisher aka koi-pea
2/9/04 lap 5'11"
298/170-trying to lose another 10

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"People will argue with you that getting what you want in life isn’t something you can learn, if you’re destined to be one of the worlds winners as opposed to one of its perpetual whiners, its because you have been born with the right talents and temperament and have a big dose of self-esteem, ambition, and good judgment." Kate White