Kasey - ((HUGS)). Your precious kids are all that count. In all your threads you mention your kids with such a tenderness - you ARE capable of love. I know you would step in front of a train for them. That kiss and whisper brought tears to my eyes - they love you right back because you first loved them...and they know it and feel secure in it. How wonderful for them to have a gift in their lives that you were sadly, lacking in yours.
I tell my dogs stuff too. They are great listeners, but I always wish they could talk - one would be wise, and the other a spaz. I am glad you came here to let it all hang out love - thats what us family peeps are for
PM me if you want to talk some more, okay?