So.. I'm still sober. lol
I'm feeling really good. Mentally I still have a ways to go. Physically I'm rocking. Gym feels good again. Sleep pattern is back to normal. Filled in for a missing member of a skydiving team this weekend that was training and got to fly a different slot. wow.. It was awesome. I was on my game. My head was clear and I was so focused and calm. Someone in my AA meeting mentioned something the other day. He said that he wanted to stop drinking because he wanted to be proud of himself. I think that's where I am at. I was proud of myself for losing all this weight but my as my drinking binges increased so did the disappointment in myself. I'm happy I stopped. I'm feeling so much better about myself. I hope that urge to drink doesn't come back but I have a feeling that one day it will come and I'll have to face it. Hopefully I'll have more tools in the toolbox by then.
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Dr. Callery
Open RNY
05/23/01
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