Vim I faced my demons a long time ago... I learned that people that do this are doing it more for control than anything... the control is what they crave similar to a rapist. And I just decided that as a child I couldnt protect myself... but as an adult, thats another ballgame and I would never let anyone or anything have that kind of control again. I am the type I dont take any shit from anyone.. EVER. and if someone was to try and hurt me now... they may end up dead... I developed severe anger management issues and had to go to several classes and things to finally get that under control. I am extrememely over protective of my kids and talk to them all the time about how to keep safe, what acceptable and whats not, and most importantly to TELL TELL TELL....
My weight problem unlike some did not stem from abuse .. I was thin until about 7 years ago when I had twins... I dont know what happened it just got out of control. I think I just got comfortable and didnt care... My poor hubby ..hehas went through so much... he can be really sweet.
All I can say here is decide .. decide today if you are going to let the person that did this to you control your life this many years later..... get counceling who cares if you need it the rest of your life.... if it helps and you can be happy go for it.. and mostly realize it is not your fault... its the abusers fault and they are the ones screwed up in the head not you ...
You have to TAKE BACK your life... and if you ever just need to talk .. please feel free to email me or whatever...
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301/207/whatever makes me healthy and normal for my height.
Before/goal
Surgery Date 3/31/2008
You can think of a million reasons to hate yourself today.... or you can be original and focus on one reason to love yourself. (manda2008)
N O T O R I O U S MANDABEAR!!
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